It\u2019s a funny thing, mental health.\u00a0
One day, you can wake up and it can feel like you are on top of your game, like everything is just going your way, and the next it can feel like the world is crumbling beneath your feet.\u00a0
It\u2019s like a magic spell, for me at least.\u00a0
Some days, I wake up, and even before I open my eyes, I already know, that during the night, all my energy has somehow been drained from me, and I have to get a hold of my spare energy tank, that is also very empty, because this isn\u2019t the first time, this month, that I have had to borrow energy from there.\u00a0\u00a0
Waking up, and knowing that you have no energy, but still have to meet the expectations of getting up, getting dressed, and going to work. The work, where I am expected to greet everyone with a smile, energy and lots and lots of small talk, is very hard.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sometimes I can find myself talking to my coworkers and experience how the words just fall out of my mouth, even though my brain is completely frozen and stuck in low battery mode. I don\u2019t know where those superpowers come from, they are just there.\u00a0
I don\u2019t know how introverts get through a world that is built up about being extroverted and meeting all the standards, of going out, talking, existing, being alive with other people.\u00a0
Most days, the only thing I feel like is staying inside, in my apartment, in bed and just lay there, lay there till the dark days are gone, and I have energy again.\u00a0
Feeling like this is bad, but having to speak up about it, can sometimes feel even worse. Sometimes I\u2019m not sure, whether or not I imagine it or if it is actually happening.\u00a0
I want to let people know how I am feeling, but having dealt with this for 10+ years, I know that half of the people won’t understand, even though I try to explain and end up having to listen to them telling me about different ways of getting rid of my feelings.\u00a0
And the other half won\u2019t know what to say, so either they say nothing or they just change the subject. Somewhere in between those two halfs, there is of course, those people who actually listen, who don\u2019t compare, don\u2019t project the light onto themselves, don\u2019t tell me that they know exactly how I feel and that everybody feels that way.
I wish that there were more of these people, but if you haven\u2019t been taught or learned how to do so, you won\u2019t know.
So therefore, it\u2019s easier, sometimes to not say anything.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n
One of my dilemma\u2019s is also, since I have dealt with this for so long, I am always in a constant limbo of whether or not, I should tell the people close to me, how I am feeling or if it would be better for them, not to know, so that I don\u2019t burden them with my problems, and they don\u2019t always have to feel like, they have to take care of me. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I wish that I could be like a wizard sometimes, so I could have some control of how I am feeling. But having suppressed my feelings for more than a decade, it makes sense that now they want to live their own life. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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